I'm just sitting here tonight thinking of all the loved-ones that I miss so much at Christmas. My grandmother, Mary, my parents, my in-laws, my dear friend, Chris, my beloved cats. Now I have Kane to add to that list of souls that made my life so wonderful, so full of love. I miss my dog so much it hurts. A real pain I feel in my chest; a tightness that just won't leave. I wonder "are you okay, Kane? Do you need me, bud?"
I know it will lessen with time but I long right now to look into those soulful eyes and feel the softness of his coat as I pat his back. He loved that. He loved a kiss on the nose, too. I don't ever want to forget the feel of his nudge on my knee as he impatiently waited for his dinner or anticipated another throw of his ball.
It's so hard to know he's gone in the flesh; only now with me in spirit. But, he lived his life; a full life, and for that I am thankful.
"Mommy loves you and misses you, Kanie."
I hope your days are merry and bright as you make your plans, bake your cookies and trim your tree for Christmas.
I'm looking forward to lunches and coffee dates with friends that I don't see near enough.